It seems as I get older I need “to do lists”. Notes and reminders of things I need to do. I’ve made these lists in years past at work because they have always been very helpful. But now a new problem has risen with my lists, I can’t find them. I get started on the list, notes on phone calls I need to return, things I need to order, special requests, specific things that I need to address but the notes end up disappearing.
I find that I catch myself quite often during prayer saying and reminding myself of things I need to do in my walk. At one point I my “sin stumbling”, (failure to stay on God’s path), was occurring so often that my prayers always included “and help me Lord not to do sinful foolish things today”. I felt that if I could get through the day without stumbling into sin then I had survived in victory.
After going through this day after day and hearing my prayers spoken out loud it dawned on me that my prayers were inadequate. That my daily prayers for victory of being spared more humiliation of sinning and disgracing myself before my God were too short sighted. God didn’t choose me before time began for this time and place just to “survive” the day without sin stumbling. That my prayers were being too focused on my failures and a waste of time. God had bigger plans for me and it was time for me to surrender those failures over to Him to handle. To trust my Lord to take care of me and my failures.
I had been stuck in a rut of praying that was unfruitful, self-centered, selfish and had very limited vision. I became very upset at my own prayers that left others out of them. I hated hearing them repeated over and over again about my failures. Like I wasn’t praying so much for help as I was declaring my failures out loud in them every day.
The dumb thing was I found myself asking for help and guidance that God had already given me. The victory, the strategy, the righteous plans, the helpful routines had already been provided for me, I had just forgot to implement them on a consistent basis. Once I did the victory that He had placed in my hand was easier for me to hold on to.
So I do have things that I need to do in my daily walk. To spend time with my Lord in prayer and in His Word. To listen to the guidance and heed the nudging of the wonderful Holy Spirit. To remind myself of ALL God’s blessings in my life. Not to assume that the people that I run in to, come across, show up in my dreams or pop into my head are there by happenstance but by heavenly design. I don’t need to know the specifics of their needs or problems they’re facing to pray for them.
To bless others in different ways, to pray for them, to listen to their needs/problems, to help, to care and to show and share with them God’s love; it’s what we Christians were put here to do!
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